My situation is considerably different from yours, I think. I’m a traditional Catholic, meaning we practice the Catholic Faith as its been since before Vatican 2. I belong to a small traditional Catholic chapel where only the Tridentine Latin Mass is offered. I’ve been fully accepted and welcomed.I also spent a number of years in the Byzantine Eastern Catholic parish when my local chapel didn’t exist yet. You might find Eastern Rite Catholicism interesting! For me it felt more “Jewish” in an Eastern European sense, whereas the traditional Catholic Mass etc felt more Jewish in an ancient Jewish sense. A book you might like is HOW CHRIST SAID THE FIRST MASS by Fr James Meagher. Its from 1908 but is in print and also available free online as a pdf.